Thursday, September 14, 2006

Deep Thoughts

S and I went for a walk this morning. At 5:15. In the morning. Oh and did I mention that it was raining? Yes, we're crazy. I mean, dedicated! Anyway, the subject of SNL and Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy came up. Hence today's title. The deep thoughts to follow are newly developed though. My one brain cell has had a busy day!

Deep Thought #1 -
I mustn't project my own needs/feelings/issues onto others. We are who we are. We are all unique in our personalities, hang-ups, way that we deal with the world.

I love my mother. Yesterday's conversation could have gone better but I think we were both having a bad day at the same time. I will continue to pray for her and for myself and hopefully things will heal and settle and get better as time progresses.

Deep Thought#2 -
(this one isn't new - this is the one that got us started on Jack Handy this morning!)
Bella walks slowly. VERY slowly. As slow as molasses and perhaps even slower. Which drives. me. crazy! Walking to school or to anywhere with her is torture for me. Come ooooonnnnn I say for the millionth time in 2 minutes... But here's the deep part. Wait for it. I don't like to walk fast either. So I guess her slow walk is my slow walk but with 5-year-old sized legs which naturally makes it seem torturously slow to me.

Deep Thought #3 -
Team work rocks. Heard on the news that a study has been published which shows a group of average people working together can solve harder problems more quickly than a super-smarty working alone. See. There's the proof, people. We should all work together more often. What a wonderful world it would be... Teamwork within my division was one of the things I loved about the Navy. Cut-throat competition between officers for recognition and advancement made me sick to my stomach. I'm seriously considering going ahead and officially resigning my commission. But we'll save that big discussion for another day.

Deep Thought #4 -
How do we get to be the way we are? I mean, really. What makes us the people we are? Why is one person a very fast walker, almost in over-drive (as perceived by the slow walkers), and another person a slow walker? What makes one person feel guilt about something and others to not? What makes one person a fan of teamwork and another person super competitive? I could go on and on but you get my point.

Deep Thought #5 -
Should I give up my LP business? I would keep the SB Fairy but get rid of the classes/inventory portion that LP represents. I'm not a salesman. I have a limited number of hours in each day. Do I want to spend it making up newsletters and class schedules for nonexistent customers? Or would I rather just take a day or two each month to get out and get some work done on my own memory books? Spending time enjoying the company of friends while looking at pictures of my cute kids at an event which was organized with someone else's time and energy? I'm not making money. My time could be better spent focusing on ways to not spend money rather than making money. Which is a money-maker in and of itself, really. Though I think that if I were to have the opportunity to dedicate as much time each month to my LP biz that I would give to, say, USNR drilling, I could build it up into something. But there is resistance from the other half. Which makes it that much more challenging. All of this brings me to my next deep thought...

Deep Thought #6 -
What do I really want out of life? Fame and fortune? A happy, healthy family? Good times spent in the company of those I love and care about? We each get 24 hours each day. How will I spend mine?

Well, let's leave it at 6 for tonight. As you may recall, I was up very early this morning and tomorrow's exercise class starts at 0600. All these deep thoughts have worn me out and so I say Good night! Sleep tight. Don't let the bedbugs bite!


Mrs. Darling said...

I think happiness and health and spending time laughing and living with family and friends is what life is all about. Id say you hit it on the head!

mapiprincesa said...

Deep indeed. And look where that has gotten me...4 a.m, almost 24 hours after our last talk and reading about it...JA!

Cheryl Wray said...

Wow, you sure were thinking DEEP, weren't you? I don't know about you--but as the weather gets a little cooler and I can see the shorter days coming, I get more reflective for some reason. And as my kids get older and start becoming little "people" who will soon be living their own lives (my oldest dd just went into high school), it makes me think of these sorts of things more often.
Just a few comemnts--
on #1--we are what we are and we can't change anyone else. That's hard for me to learn sometimes, but it's so true!! The trick is to learn how to live with the differences!
on #6-- I think you should do what makes you happy! If you aren't fulfilled in your job, give some serious thought about doing something else. There are other options out there!
Have a great weekend!